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Why did I start this blog? Who will read it? Who will like it?  I don't know. In this world of social media, where people are showing off their lavish or pseudo lavish lifestyle, I just wanted to be away from that shit. Here, hopefully, only intellectual people would visit. Here, I shall dump all my thoughts, my life incidents, my goals, my values, my life lessons, my mistakes, my present, past and future. I don't know who will benefit from this. But I'm just doing it.  Thank you for reading this.
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My Failed Marriages

Let me start with a cliche - A Startup is a child of your marriage with your co-founders . Well with that logic, I have had many failed marriages. This is just a brief curation of learnings from the same.  The Journey began in the first year of my college, when the idea of Rentux hit me and I wanted to try it. The college was online and I found someone who was interested in this, let’s call him Person A . He said he knew coding and building websites, so I took him on board, and 30% equity, we made a deal. Such a naive move. When college started offline in the second year of my college, I launched rentux.in and it was working really well. Now, Person A was supposed to join and take over the tech part. A couple of months passed and there was no output from his side. Now it was time for a serious conversation and maybe a separation. That was my first marriage that didn’t work out along my startup journey.  For a couple of months, I was running it alone and the response was real...

Connection.

For quite some time, I have believed that nothing is right or wrong, it's all subjective. Maybe, this is true. Or maybe I was just trying to please both sides by staying neutral. I asked some of my closest friends: why do people have casual hookups these days? Isn't it bad? For me, having a physical connection with someone is really precious and special, and I believe it should be the last step in a connection. These days, people get physical first and then try to understand each other if they decide to meet again. I got some answers from my friends. They said it's social media that's degrading people. People do it for stress relief; everyone around is mentally stressed, and these are coping methods, whether it's sex, alcohol, or smoking. Some people said it's bad; some people said not all hookups are bad if they are keeping you out of depression, stress, or mental disorders. What I realized is that the right and wrong side of this depends on whether you have do...

Access

Let me hit you with a classic - What would you choose? Fame or Money? Aah, whatever you choose. But what if there's another option - ' Access '?  And that is what I want, Access. What if you had access to the most important people, places, resources and advancements? Isn't that a superpower ?  Maybe deep inside, Money and Fame also unlocks some of it. It gives you access to many of these things. But what if, we switch these things and rather than chasing money or fame, chase access? I believe if you are a smart person with a great network and access to some of these things, money follows and fame is optional.  Opportunities are proportional to the access you have. The higher the value of access you have, the higher the opportunity to turn it into monetary outcome, followed by fame.  So what is the difference? If I go after chasing money (because I believe it's easier to do that than going 'the fame way'), my metric would be how much money I would make, and ...

Hate is beautiful!

Hate , when you think about it, first thing comes to your mind is negativity . Maybe, there's more to it. Hate - " to have a very strong feeling of not liking something at all " At least that's what the defination says. But is it bad to hate something? I don't think so.  Every solution comes out when somebody hates a problem badly. So bad that it doesn't allow them to rest. It's a combination of obsession and hate. Hate the problem and get obsessed to solve it. Sounds easy right? We'll, it's not that easy.  It's easier and more satisfying to just talk. Brag about how well can you criticise something in front of people to look cool . And that's majority of us. How many of us hate our college, the education system, the job we are doing, the country, the government and everything else? Almost all of us. How many of us like talking about why and what we hate about those things with our friends (both real and fake social media friends) and colle...

Rainbow.

I thought this deserved to be preserved, that's why I'm dumping it here. Because it was beautiful. A fews days back, I had a dream. It was raining heavily and there were thunders. It was a dark night and I, saw a rainbow! It was beautiful and glowing. It wasn't like a typical circular rainbow, I could just see some part of the curve and I was too scared to go out and follow the trail to see where it goes.But, I went out, followed it. I don't know where it was leading, as I went out, I saw many many rainbows similar to it, glittering in the dark, rainy and scary night.  I remember that feeling being out there. I was scared, exited and curious to go out there and see where it leads. I don't know where it would have led me, the dream ended before that. I don't even know what it meant. But it definitely meant something. Something beautiful!

Influence

There's a saying, ' you are an average of 5 people around you '. I believe it's true. But everything has to evolve with time, and that applies to this saying as well. People in India spend around 6-7 hours in front of the screen and if you are from this generation, most of it would be social media. You probably spend more time on those apps than with your best friends.  This changes the perspective entirely for that statement. Because now you have to consider the social media factor while considering the average.  When you are going through a phase in life (which is almost always) and you come across an Instagram post which is soo relatable and so called, ' motivational ' (which is also, almost always). You get motivated. You feel that you got a solution. It ' feels good '. You change your thoughts, your beliefs infact your values (temporarily).  The next day, you see another post, this time it says something different (maybe the first post told you, ...

Anomaly

By Anomaly, here I mean someone who's trying to do different, follow a different path. And that's sometimes scary. It sometimes hits you. You see people around you getting placed, getting settled and you are still hustling around your dream.  Being in final year of engineering, where I believe most of the dreams die and people now start to settle for whatever placements they get (of course, here I am talking about mediocre people, exceptional is rare at our college, and Anomaly is rarest). Me being one of the very few people doing a startup. I mean sounds cool right? A startup! CEO! Founder! Funding! Valuation! It's all bullshit.  Sometimes you are mentally exhausted managing college stuff (most of it is useless) and trying to survive with a very early stage Startup.  If you are preparing for Competitive exams or even placements, there are a huge people around you who relate to you. For me, hardly anyone because of course, I am an anomaly. Sometimes I feel it's too risk...